i still feel empty...
i still feel tat life has nothing in store for me
i wake up each day,
with no aim,nor goal.
each day juz passes by.
wasted.
i feel terribly lonely and suffering..
why im i doin stuff i dun want to?
my passion is blocked by reality..
soon enuf i'll have to let 1 go..
and either way... i'll suffer mentally or physically..
life sucks still..
when i face reality...
i cant get my head down to concentrate on tasks at hand..
and rather tink of irrelevant stuff..
like my passion.. or people...
when im doin stuff i like.. i can never be at ease...
knowing reality will come knocking at my door all too soon...
i look around me once more...
only to see tat...
im seriously alone...
rly rly alone...
my family,my home... juz a place to slp and eat..
friends... losing them slowly??
im... losing my humanity... and sanity..
my sanctuary is my mind and music...
to shut myself from wads happening around me..
and indulge in mental get-aways in my mind...
i though i was...
and then i thought i wasnt..
but then again... am i rly am??
fated to juz go with the flow of life??
with this suffering???
with feelings of none but emptiness?
i look back... with no joy.
i look forwards... with no hope.
i look presently... with no life..
damn.